It's you and me. Always,

Tuesday, December 26, 2006,5:58 AM

i'm back from penang, and christmas.
gah christmas was boring, srzly
i spent most of the time walking around Dr. Marina's house looking for a place to play the ps2 on, and it got snatched away by julian anyway X_x
omg Dr Marina made me wear a cheongsam, and swear to wear it for cny. did i mention? it makes me look fat, scratch that, i AM fat. it makes me look fatter, there.
ah heck, its all in the name of the 250 bucks i'll be getting in return
i need the money
i'm even taking care of my sister's egg, in return for 8 bucks 21 days later if it doesnt hatch, and 15 if it does, meaning i have to put the egg in my shirt/bra for 21 days.
see how desperate for cash i am?
cos of the cosplay D: D:
wait lemme see
i'm cosplaying itachi( *fangirls*) so i need...
1) ~~cloak~~ i have it! it cost 88 bucks X_x
2) slashed konoha headband, which costs 15 bucks, which i'm gonna get soon, but borrowing from erin for geneve's party.
3) ~~ring~~
4) ~~necklace~~
5) fishnet shirt-HOW THE HELL DO I FIND THAT?!
6) chuunin shoes-30+ i think. i'm borrowing from leen for geneve's party.
7) bandages, anybody know where to get?
8) contacts. these are whats killing me right now. they cost US125! D: my money!
;_; like chanel, leen and erin said, i could jsut get red contacts but how cheater is that? okay i'd do that, but i cant find any /:
HEEEEEELLLLP

Friday, December 08, 2006,6:08 PM

revival! and also cos i'm bored and rollover hasnt happened yet.

1. Name out once of each friends with names starting with A to Z.

Aly (cos i'm too lazy to delete)
Ben!
Chanel! dman i have no idea where to fit leen.
D err dunno?
Emma
Fik
Geri! i am my own best friend(x
HPDM, my third best friend.
I am my own best friend.
Julian(yay he's coming over for christmas
K(omg jolene you missed this out. i think.) kailin
Lucy! more slave than friend? nahh still more friend than slave xD
Me! jkg, Mel(ody)
Nat
Oprah Winfrey is everyone's friend! if she isnt, then Olay is every woman above forty's best friend.
Pearl
QiYing
Ryan!
Sarah ( i was tempted to put sephiroth, then thought about the suanning that would have gotten me so nvm)
Tea! more specifically, green tea!
U noe hu dis is(zomg lian speak)
Vincent
What!
Xian. very xian.
You are getting sleepy....
Zomg finally, somewhere i can pt leen!

2. How many siblings A has? Name them.
ONE. HAH SEE I KNOW.

3. What does B SMS you about?
telling me my sister is jumping on my bed -_-

4. What is C's nickname?
err i dont think chanel has one. oho how bout chaleen! okay lame nvm.

5. How did you get to know D?
due to my blurness(x

6. How despo is E?
.....BWAHAHAHAHA OMG EMMA DESPO. SOMEONE GET GUINESS WORLD RECORD.

7. How much older/younger is F than you?
no idea. physical age older, yes, maturity, DEFINITELY older.

8. Name 3 of G's best friends.
me, me and me.

9. Does H know I? In what way?
yes they know each other, verrry intimatrely xD

10. What happens if J suddenly turns into your enemy?
....happened many times, but we always end up getting together to fight against my sister O_o

11. Under what condition will K & L gets married?
DAMN i knew i should have put L for Leon

12. How many people do you know with M's name?
Melody? err Beethovan's third sonata is one.

13. Do you enjoy talking on the phone with N?
i...dont. i enjoy talking with her about Diana Wynne Jones though xD

14. Do you think O knows P?
omg pearl you know oprah winfrey?! get me a signature!

15. How geeky is Q?
...qiying. geeky. HAHAHAHA

16. Is R very popular?
heh no idea, his school's waaay off in new zealand.

18. Is T a very random person?
GREEN TEA IS NOT RANDOM. IT IS TEH 1337

19. How are U & V related?
they're not.

20. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend?
we are MORE THAN FRIENDS. we are err. close buddies?

21. When is the last time u met up with X?
today. just now.

22. Are Y & Z enemies?
.....xD

23. Of A to Z, which one do u love the most and will give <3s>
G!

24. Will you betray any of them?
no! *cuddles*

25. Have u loved and confessed to any one in A to Z?
i have always loved myself, but have seen no need to confess xD

26. Have you tagged A to Z informing them that they have to take this quiz too?
nope.

I AM STILL BORED T______________T

Monday, November 13, 2006,7:42 AM

this be a late post
i'm going off tomorrow(x
hee wish me luck in speaking chinese.
umnm lets see
chanel/leen: naruto and bleach stuff
jolene: smth emo(HAHAHA JOLENE)
sarah: a sketchbook! as in, the kind with sketches already inside
emma: a skirt.
fik: something to do with jolie. maybe a two cent poster?
erik: soft toy! hee so you can hug(x
kailin: ummm i'll wait and see haha
qiying: leejunki stuff
yubo: gothic lolita clothes! hee
bro: naruto stuff(zomg a convert D:)
jacky: prob mroe emo stuff. she's angsty.
umm
calista(cos she's bugging me for a present, bloody hell): dunno
umm
kenneth?: sims stuff lawl
heh i cant think of any more stuff
nat'll prob remind me
hee
man one month T_T

haha being forgotten does have its perks, i guess(x

Wednesday, November 08, 2006,5:14 AM

zomg cloud is short X_x
5'7"
thats abt 167-169
which is SHORT.
heh
okay nvm
breaking news
MY HAIR IS DROPPING D:
i am in anguish here.
my tail's longest few hairs have been dropping(they're only about 12cm btw. kinda pathetic, really.)
gahh
ah heck
and another thing
the ring which sarah, jolene, emma, and me have?
yeah
i very stupidly misshaped it in the middle of trng
i was doing burpees(which suck.), and cos the cord on which the ring was hung kept flying out of my shirt, i took it off and put it around my wrist.
and into my watch
but lo and behold, when i finished my burpees, it was in a triangle shape.
i swear, that nearly gave me a heart attack.
but the good news is, i managed to get it back to normal, round shape!
i went to bits and pieces after trng today, with erik and charlotte
and when the guy saw the ring he was like O_O
haha
then he took out this long thingy (OMG FIK DONT THINK SICK) like a rod, only narrow at one end and thicker at the other, and put the ring on it
then he used a really cute hammer made of plastic i think, yellow and red like lucy and gayle's twin costume haha
and hammered it into shape
hee that was quite fascinating to watch
meh
everyone has been posting on how they'll miss 213
so i shall be original, and not do that.
~~real reason: i cant think of anything that has not already been said~~
whee
but srsly, i'm gonna miss acting gay /:
(shit i just scratched myself again. i need a new keyboard!)

Saturday, October 28, 2006,5:27 PM

I had a Weird and Scary dream.
and because i'm such a Great person, my dreams are significant.
but thats not the point
the point is, i think i'm scared of needles /:

see, i had a dream where me, jolene, eileen, chanel, and someone else, i cant rmb X_x went to the future or smth.
and we were asked to save the starship(or wahtever that thingy hanging in the stars was) from the evil doctor something.
and on the way, we met emma, who was a poor, impoverished slave(AHAHAHA) working under that evil doctor something.
we saved her, and she became my slave (ohyeah i rmb who the other person was, it was lucy. heh.) and we set out to kill that evil doctor something.
and at his ominous doorstep, we saw his doctor. (the evil doctor apparently has asthma)
the doctor said we couldnt go past unless we gave her our eggs, so she could fertilise them(bio omg)
and being the brave macho person i am, i offered to do so(not like i wanted them anyway)
the thing is(and the whole point of this pointless dream), is that she STUCK THIS HUGE NEEDLE INTO MY STOMACH TO GET OUT THE EGGS.
omgomgomg
and in conclusion, i dont think i like needles very much.
so for the taiwan influenza jab thing, i have a deep, foreboding feeling that i'm gonna scream.
i have a bad relationship with needles i tell you.
the last time i got myself jabbed, it was to take out blood.
and the doctor went 'oops, i didnt hit a nerve' so he pulled it out and stuck it back in again.
gahh~
oh and if youre wondering, we DID defeat the evil doctor who had asthma.
we challenged him to an xbox game, and when i defeated his kirby with my phoenix guy, he screamed and died.
so there.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006,4:26 AM

Knowledge
Twirl and swirl.
Nobody's looking, for now.
Feet moving in a tangent of geometric shapes.
Silent swooshing of linen robes as he comes to a standstill.
The bare room looks back at him, returning expectant gaze for expectant gaze.
Wooden floors give no response to questions asked, rather, they return them with dusty footsteps.
Footsteps, he hears footsteps. He turns around, looking expectantly, as he always does, to the gaping hole that passes for a doorway.
Another waits there, head bowed. For a moment, he wonders if it his fault, if he had done something wrong to cause pain to him
Thinking back furiously gives no clue as to what possible misbehaviour he might have done.
No thought, no emotions show on his face as he steps forward. Slowly, oh so slowly, his head raises, like the snakes he speaks to.
His face is wan, drawn with pain and racked with lines that speak volumes about his emotional state, lines that tell Draco more than Harry would ever tell him.
Of course, Draco says nothing, lets nothing past the soft smile that he keeps on his face like a mask, a layer of pretty smiles and empty eyes framed by silver blonde lashes.
Harry thought Draco could not guess what was going on, did not know anything beyond the confines of the room in their house, and the daily meals brought by him. Draco knew better.
Draco knew Harry was still fighting a war, no longer a physical one, never a physical one. Only now it was fought with political barbs and hints that the Boy-Who-Lived no longer had any purpose in a world where Voldemort was dead.
Draco knew he was supposed to be braindead, hit by a spell from his own father for not killing Harry when he was supposed to.
Draco knew, Harry came back every day to check on him, feeling honor bound as a member of the Order to check on a casualty of war.
Draco knew, he knew.
Nothing got past his face as he reached out his hand, playing the simpleton. He kept smiling, never letting his knowledge get past his eyes.
Oh if anyone had known, had known that Draco had never meant to join the Order. Had known that Draco could not kill Harry because he was scared to do so. Had known that he had killed his own father before he could kill him. Had known that Narcissa Malfoy resided in Malfoy Manor still, sitting at her dresser and waiting for him to act.
Had known that Draco would never act, for life was much simpler this way, having Harry feed him, Harry lead him here and there, having Harry own him, body but not soul.
Never soul.
He reached forward to give Harry a hug, like he'd done for the past few months, a routine they had yet to break. He smiled a genuine smile while keeping his face pressed into Harry's comfortable shoulder, a smile that would have made Lucius Malfoy proud.
Oh, Draco knew everything, while Harry knew only what he chose him to know.
And Draco was planning to keep it that way.
-finit-

There, a random piece that popped out of nowhere. It was waiting to come out, so here it is.
And yeah, i miss emaa, and i'm gonna miss 213, but i won't post my feelings here like everyone else does, i have my own reasons. Go see my lj if you want angst.

Saturday, October 14, 2006,6:31 AM

A TWO THIRTEEN TRIBUTE(ARY)
since i read a few emo posts, i shall be emo and write one too!
anyway
friday was lets-all-be-emo-and-look-past-eoys day
/:
i think aly was damn brave(or maybe its just cos she's aly) to cry like that, in front of nearly the whole class
i would never have done that
~~thats cos i'm macho~~
sniff
i'm gonna miss 213
its the only class where i've actually been able to act as myself as possible so far.
pri1-3, i was too busy living up to julian, geovann and joseph's expectations, acting as the tough bully and all.
pri4-6 was worse. hormones started kicking in and i felt the need to act perfect, not have any flaws.
sec one...hur with 110 waddya think?
so
213 is the best class i've been in, and will probably be.
its where i can act as gay as i want to, and still be taken seriously. well not really, but at impt stuff, yeah.
its where we can all get high, over impossibly inane stuff
like, candice is being mature, and ally being ally, chanel and leen fangirling, liz reading as usual, and i'm trying to be macho, but usually not succeeding
jolene would be being suanned by fik, lucy and liying while sarah continues to fold stars, responding when they get too rowdy
gwen and stella would be talking to each other, lana paying attention(WITHOUT THE LION PENCILCASE D:) yuwen sleeping, and glen drawing away.
nat and syd would be reading manga, or sleeping in syd's case. gayle would be sleeping, but wake up every once in a while to preach on about how manga's gonna kill us all one day. mel would sleep throughout, while geneve and yiting draw or read.
emma and erin would watch as aly and cat fight over aly's pencilcase, or something equally trivial. pearl would be reading her angsty books(x
and i'm not really sure about shin's grp, but i know shin makes these weird noises, little squeaks every once in a while.
sigh.
i miss 213 already
will i be able to act as gay and macho in my next class?
i wonder.

a tribute to someone, who probably never existed except maybe in my imagination
i always wanted a twin,
someone i could share all memories with
we'd grow together, learn together, sleep together
we'd be closer than siblings are allowed to be.
we'd be one.
we wouldnt care what others would think
we'd just do it anyway.
what i wanted was a part of myself to anchor to
someone whose life would revolve around mine, and mine around his. or hers.
someone who would do as i want, and i'd do as she, or he wanted.
heh like that'd ever happen.
my theory is that, every person needs another person to anchor themselves to
or more than one person
or even an object.
as we pass through life, we make webs that connect ourselves with that person, then as events happen, those webs either break or strengthen.
when those webs grow too strong, the two people are stuck together, whether they want it or not.
wish that'd happen.